A bad start to the year. I’m afraid, that I didn’t get through JEE. Expected that. Didn’t get through NTU. Didn’t expect that – specifically, because I never thought they’d bring up my class 10th English marks again when deciding the final rankings for the interview. They did, I appealed, they haven’t replied. With the interviews starting around 2nd June, I assume that to be a ‘NO’ from their side.

Had DCE / NSIT CEE yesterday. Physics went extremely well, but all I have to say is that I’m glad all the exams are over. I don’t expect anything great from AIEEE or CEE either – simply because I know I’m getting the top colleges, and I know that I *don’t* want to go to just about any college to get a degree. Or even in the highly unlikely chance that BITSAT cutoffs fall, I won’t get the branches of my choice. Which is exactly what I don’t want to do – take a branch I’m not interested in.

I could go on and say why I didn’t get through. Those reasons might sound logical, but I won’t. The plain and simple fact is – I didn’t get through. Period. So I’m not going to make any excuses. Or offer any reasons. All that matters to me is that I *know* where *I* went wrong, and exactly how much more happier I’d be if I hadn’t screwed. And I’ve a fairly good idea now how to set thing right. Too bad that it’ll take one more year to achieve it.

I’m not even going to bother to check my AIEEE result – because I *know* that it wasn’t good, and I don’t want to be tempted by the whole relatives brigade of taking a ‘backup option’ at any goddamn college. I think dropping a year, and rectifying the mistakes that I made in the past one (two?) years is the way forward – than getting an engineering degree for the sake of it.